A year passed by, Still waiting for hopes to be filled.

Tick tock tick tock ........seconds changed into minutes, minutes to hours , hours to days, days went by and entered the month, months passed and Its a more than a year now, Yet the wait never ends. Looking back from where i am today, At times I felt that this period costed me much both in monetary terms and time. Recollecting my activites past one and half year, It struck me today ,that in some way or other i spent a sum of Rs 60,000/- A shear waste of money.It all started with the advent of my thrist for an MBA degree.At first, it was just to redefine the person in me, but later during the course of preperation, the pictorgraphy in my mind changed. I dreamed of making it there (IIM's) a place which fascinated me the most.Interaction with various people pursuing/waiting to pursue a career in same field ,inculcated in me an urge to be one among the elite.Unfortunately or fortunately ( I still cannot decide over it , as I havent found anything good in what happened) I failed to make it THERE!! Eye brows raised, critics poured in with my decission of not applying to any other than top 10 B-Schools. Suggestions from all sides with live examples kept pouring in- asking me to change my attitude. Adamant by nature I stuck to my guns, though their words pricked and even does at times.From then on the journey continued to a never ending list of dissapointments.Sometimes failed to qualify in few , Sometimes reached till the end, but always there remained a slip between the cup and the lip, it turned into a saga of unfulfilled hopes and dreams. Not to forget,I took GRE and TOEFL.Just as hopes rekindled within me with a vision about getting there -things started getting vague - for few inevitable reasons.By and large-the whole gamble turned sour.Amidst these events , from no-where creeped in jealousy when i saw my friends and well wishers succeeding in some way or the other (might have been as small as a drop in a ocean, but mattered to me ).Slowly as time flew,I got caught in a web -unaccessible to many. With time moving at faster pace ,I find myself today at a junction-unfocussed with yearning eyes just to find a ray of light to show a path for my diminishing hopes.

Life As a Sea